Friday, May 16, 2003
shifted =)
electricity down your cradled spine
it feels icy cold to look up now
urgh. urgh. urgh. i have been waiting for three days for this x-men 2 to complete its download. and i was so happy when i was finished. but. apparantly, it turns out to be spiderman. urgh. i wonder if some people can tell the difference between mutants and disfigured spiders. -rolls eyes- im glad ive the irc downloaded one. -huggs bubu- if bubu didnt help me with those yucky codes id never be able to see the wonders of nightcrawler in action again. and of cos, the pretty rouge. =) my favourite scene is still that scene where she kissed iceman. whoah!!! so cool. -swoons- and i got her pretty face on my desktop. the x-men flash. tsk tsk. it's totally rad. now im gonna change my whole desktop's theme just to blend in. i amuse myself. hehs. anyways every part of my body has been aching since this morning. i promise you im never gonna accompany char to walk a thousand miles with no directions. but oh wells. bio and amath tests tomms. shoes and bubu came over today supposedly to finish up our song. but shoes ended up tutoring bubu math. and me too of cos. and i distracted bubu quite alot. shoes was irritated. and she's a real cornie tutor. lol. the product rule of differentiation is the mokey rule. there are apes and baboons included. ahas. and bubu returned me my shirt. it looks... discolored. wonder if her mom washed it with bleach or wort. and it reeks of her smell. grr. surprisingly, she cannot fit into my berms. they're too short fer her. hahs. and we have the same shoes size! oh wells. bubu im going over to yer place to kop some clothes back very soon. -grinnns- gonna slp early tonight. lotsa activities on this weekend. there's service and my bro's getting married!!! yayness. he dropped by just now. he looks really good recently. perhaps it's the radiance that glows because he's in christ huh. or he's going through grooming for his big day? hehes. im actually more excited bout going to fullerton than seeing him get married. ahas! sorry bro! but really. i can't wait to see you get married actually. so perhaps youd have yer own kids and youd wisen up and stop treating me like a kid. =p
pherd just called. got lotsa things to ponder over now. -breathes- things will work out fine yea god? many things on my agenda. but. i'll prioritise. and everything will be okai with him around. -nod nods-
][jukebox][ enya - fallen embers
][feeling][ achy still
brr.
-breathes- 5items over! -whoops!- all i need is a C and above for my 2.4km run and i can get my gold. ahas. didnt do napfa last year. exempted myself. am glad that i still can be close to gold this year. was pretty late after the whole thing. went down to the cbd area with pei char ser eileen to snap some cool shots for our class page but char just made us walk around the place over and over and over again. urgh. now my feet is aching. terribly. anyways was a great night out. snapped lotsa rubbishy shots. oh wells. had a great day. but im tired. still looking forward to tomms =) it'll be a better day ahead. -yawns- oh yea! added new photos here -grinns- the left column btw.
][jukebox][
][feeling][ achy all over
i love my nails now! =)
was filing and buffing my nails all the way from suntec to home. wahas. i like. =) and bubu!!! i shall do manicure fer you tomms kies? -grinns- can save money. but you can pay me for my services though. kekes. newaes came home early today supposedly to rest cos i wasnt feeling too good in school. but. the minute i was feeling fine, my mom asked me to go shopping with her and auntie lalita. =.= what a cute mom i have. but i thank God for giving me the best. shall go slp now. pain coming up. napfa tomms. -stretches-
][jukebox][ faye wong - tian kong
][feeling][ pain.
You were always there for me with Your sweet yet fiery calls, beckoning me with those subtle signals. twilight made no difference to Your preference, bound to You with a force unbeknownst to me. sometimes i sit and watch the stars, wishing out loud for my dreams. othertimes i spoke gently, my words floating away on the cool summer breeze right into Your hands in heaven. still, those midnight walks meant something to me, those long prayers that went for hours, those slight smiles of Yours in the hallways in my mind. however all was snatched away with the fall of the garden of eden. we only met in short passages, cut off by pressing matters of significance, still, i found my own ways to be with You, in spirit if not in mind. You meant so much to me, You still do and maybe i can pray that I still mean that much to You cos ive fallen so far short of Your glory. maybe one day i can see You face to face once again and finally be under Your wings. Father, ilu+
cos i know He's out there some where
just reached home from seed. -phews- it's so... erhh. hmms. to share close mushy mushy stuff with guys. but scraped through anyhows. wells i started painting on my art piece today! real rad. -huge grinns- am painting on this 120 x 80cm huge plywood. brr. so exciting. finished the outlines today in a dark creepy room alone. was like singing to myself so i wont be that scared. til lynnette burst open the door and i screamed. she turned around and screamed, "what are you doing on top of that?!" i was like, "painting". hahas. hilarious. anyways im trying really hard to figure out how this avi thing in irc works. urgh. was so reluctant to install irc. grr. but for my x-men 2, i'll do it. oh! and shoes enlightened me on the dance of the blessed spirits. it's actually at 72/semiquaver. not crotchet. ahas. now it's oh so ballady. and i can finally manage. the mep room is now my chill out area in school. ahas. cos it's fully air conditioned. okai. ignore me. shoots. bio test tomms! -scrambles off the comp to mug-
][jukebox][ gluck - the dance of the blessed spirits
][feeling][ nerdie
"i dig my toes into the sand.
the ocean looks like a thousand
diamonds strewn across a blue
blanket. i lean against the wind,
pretend that i am weightless, and in
this moment i am happy."
as i sat down and smoothed my skirt
she held me and planted a kiss on my cheeks
reflections dance across my almond brown tinted eyes and mold me into the clay i was slowing sinking into. You only smile and i promise i see confetti waltzing in the breeze like leaves falling from the trees on a cool autumn afternoon. i can erase everything except for your silhouette plastered across my mind, but perhaps that is simply because You are the only piece of reality that has ever made my taste buds tingle in delight. and You can erase everything except for my sunkissed smile because i can only smile at that slice of sunshine You painted that has ever brightened up my days. good thing i am moulded in this clay with Your arms wrapped around me because this is where i want to stay.
is it strange how i spend my times these days. getting cheery every saturday with my worship and praise on my lips. it is ironic really. the way life twists and turns. i am on this rollercoaster and it never ends. i was riding the waves. i was taking the falls. and i was vomitting up all the bullshit i used to swallow down. used to ask if there was a better way to take those pills. to shoot it up. inhale, exhale. where was i going with that. where was i going in life. down the drain. passed out of the floor of a bedroom with pills in my hand. was i an ending. or a beginning. nothing seemed clear. i was tearing apart everything that used to be real. was i dreaming. or was everything crashing down. was i free. or were those bars surrounding me. was it strange how i spent my time those days. wearing myself out. doing nothing at all. dwelling on thoughts that meant nothing at all.
so fast and it was gone leaving me counting upon my fingers how many silly memories i had of myself. maybe we all crash and burn at some point in our lives. maybe we all fall. picking up the pieces just isn't on everyone's agenda. but arent you so glad there's this great Him up there to pick up the fallen you? wells, i am.
][jukebox][ david meece - forgiven
][feeling][ assurred.
shifted =)
bitinn` awayy at 8:36 AM
Thursday, May 15, 2003it feels icy cold to look up now
urgh. urgh. urgh. i have been waiting for three days for this x-men 2 to complete its download. and i was so happy when i was finished. but. apparantly, it turns out to be spiderman. urgh. i wonder if some people can tell the difference between mutants and disfigured spiders. -rolls eyes- im glad ive the irc downloaded one. -huggs bubu- if bubu didnt help me with those yucky codes id never be able to see the wonders of nightcrawler in action again. and of cos, the pretty rouge. =) my favourite scene is still that scene where she kissed iceman. whoah!!! so cool. -swoons- and i got her pretty face on my desktop. the x-men flash. tsk tsk. it's totally rad. now im gonna change my whole desktop's theme just to blend in. i amuse myself. hehs. anyways every part of my body has been aching since this morning. i promise you im never gonna accompany char to walk a thousand miles with no directions. but oh wells. bio and amath tests tomms. shoes and bubu came over today supposedly to finish up our song. but shoes ended up tutoring bubu math. and me too of cos. and i distracted bubu quite alot. shoes was irritated. and she's a real cornie tutor. lol. the product rule of differentiation is the mokey rule. there are apes and baboons included. ahas. and bubu returned me my shirt. it looks... discolored. wonder if her mom washed it with bleach or wort. and it reeks of her smell. grr. surprisingly, she cannot fit into my berms. they're too short fer her. hahs. and we have the same shoes size! oh wells. bubu im going over to yer place to kop some clothes back very soon. -grinnns- gonna slp early tonight. lotsa activities on this weekend. there's service and my bro's getting married!!! yayness. he dropped by just now. he looks really good recently. perhaps it's the radiance that glows because he's in christ huh. or he's going through grooming for his big day? hehes. im actually more excited bout going to fullerton than seeing him get married. ahas! sorry bro! but really. i can't wait to see you get married actually. so perhaps youd have yer own kids and youd wisen up and stop treating me like a kid. =p
pherd just called. got lotsa things to ponder over now. -breathes- things will work out fine yea god? many things on my agenda. but. i'll prioritise. and everything will be okai with him around. -nod nods-
][jukebox][ enya - fallen embers
][feeling][ achy still
bitinn` awayy at 8:25 AM
Wednesday, May 14, 2003-breathes- 5items over! -whoops!- all i need is a C and above for my 2.4km run and i can get my gold. ahas. didnt do napfa last year. exempted myself. am glad that i still can be close to gold this year. was pretty late after the whole thing. went down to the cbd area with pei char ser eileen to snap some cool shots for our class page but char just made us walk around the place over and over and over again. urgh. now my feet is aching. terribly. anyways was a great night out. snapped lotsa rubbishy shots. oh wells. had a great day. but im tired. still looking forward to tomms =) it'll be a better day ahead. -yawns- oh yea! added new photos here -grinns- the left column btw.
][jukebox][
][feeling][ achy all over
bitinn` awayy at 10:58 AM
Tuesday, May 13, 2003was filing and buffing my nails all the way from suntec to home. wahas. i like. =) and bubu!!! i shall do manicure fer you tomms kies? -grinns- can save money. but you can pay me for my services though. kekes. newaes came home early today supposedly to rest cos i wasnt feeling too good in school. but. the minute i was feeling fine, my mom asked me to go shopping with her and auntie lalita. =.= what a cute mom i have. but i thank God for giving me the best. shall go slp now. pain coming up. napfa tomms. -stretches-
][jukebox][ faye wong - tian kong
][feeling][ pain.
bitinn` awayy at 8:06 AM
Monday, May 12, 2003You were always there for me with Your sweet yet fiery calls, beckoning me with those subtle signals. twilight made no difference to Your preference, bound to You with a force unbeknownst to me. sometimes i sit and watch the stars, wishing out loud for my dreams. othertimes i spoke gently, my words floating away on the cool summer breeze right into Your hands in heaven. still, those midnight walks meant something to me, those long prayers that went for hours, those slight smiles of Yours in the hallways in my mind. however all was snatched away with the fall of the garden of eden. we only met in short passages, cut off by pressing matters of significance, still, i found my own ways to be with You, in spirit if not in mind. You meant so much to me, You still do and maybe i can pray that I still mean that much to You cos ive fallen so far short of Your glory. maybe one day i can see You face to face once again and finally be under Your wings. Father, ilu+
bitinn` awayy at 6:55 AM
just reached home from seed. -phews- it's so... erhh. hmms. to share close mushy mushy stuff with guys. but scraped through anyhows. wells i started painting on my art piece today! real rad. -huge grinns- am painting on this 120 x 80cm huge plywood. brr. so exciting. finished the outlines today in a dark creepy room alone. was like singing to myself so i wont be that scared. til lynnette burst open the door and i screamed. she turned around and screamed, "what are you doing on top of that?!" i was like, "painting". hahas. hilarious. anyways im trying really hard to figure out how this avi thing in irc works. urgh. was so reluctant to install irc. grr. but for my x-men 2, i'll do it. oh! and shoes enlightened me on the dance of the blessed spirits. it's actually at 72/semiquaver. not crotchet. ahas. now it's oh so ballady. and i can finally manage. the mep room is now my chill out area in school. ahas. cos it's fully air conditioned. okai. ignore me. shoots. bio test tomms! -scrambles off the comp to mug-
][jukebox][ gluck - the dance of the blessed spirits
][feeling][ nerdie
bitinn` awayy at 5:37 AM
Sunday, May 11, 2003"i dig my toes into the sand.
the ocean looks like a thousand
diamonds strewn across a blue
blanket. i lean against the wind,
pretend that i am weightless, and in
this moment i am happy."
bitinn` awayy at 8:45 AM
Saturday, May 10, 2003she held me and planted a kiss on my cheeks
reflections dance across my almond brown tinted eyes and mold me into the clay i was slowing sinking into. You only smile and i promise i see confetti waltzing in the breeze like leaves falling from the trees on a cool autumn afternoon. i can erase everything except for your silhouette plastered across my mind, but perhaps that is simply because You are the only piece of reality that has ever made my taste buds tingle in delight. and You can erase everything except for my sunkissed smile because i can only smile at that slice of sunshine You painted that has ever brightened up my days. good thing i am moulded in this clay with Your arms wrapped around me because this is where i want to stay.
is it strange how i spend my times these days. getting cheery every saturday with my worship and praise on my lips. it is ironic really. the way life twists and turns. i am on this rollercoaster and it never ends. i was riding the waves. i was taking the falls. and i was vomitting up all the bullshit i used to swallow down. used to ask if there was a better way to take those pills. to shoot it up. inhale, exhale. where was i going with that. where was i going in life. down the drain. passed out of the floor of a bedroom with pills in my hand. was i an ending. or a beginning. nothing seemed clear. i was tearing apart everything that used to be real. was i dreaming. or was everything crashing down. was i free. or were those bars surrounding me. was it strange how i spent my time those days. wearing myself out. doing nothing at all. dwelling on thoughts that meant nothing at all.
so fast and it was gone leaving me counting upon my fingers how many silly memories i had of myself. maybe we all crash and burn at some point in our lives. maybe we all fall. picking up the pieces just isn't on everyone's agenda. but arent you so glad there's this great Him up there to pick up the fallen you? wells, i am.
][jukebox][ david meece - forgiven
][feeling][ assurred.
bitinn` awayy at 9:07 AM
```unravel.
a slow burning ecstasy//guitar and the day moon//petrol stations on the road//with no destination//you loved me in august//but you dont see me//so much more beautiful in april
```his child.
ron. 170387// icq.#74777649// yhoppie// deco ministry// neb3// jessie's.sheep// stnix// 4dee// sngg//
turnons. Him// red.black// two// tea// spag// piano// clavinova// EL-87// guitar// drummers// strawberry// peach// apple// tomato// chilli//
turnoffs. creepy crawlees// school// unoriginals// noise// imood.
```lookingood.
blacknwhite.
mvpcg.
170303.
fourdiligence.
cl huddle.
ex.neb8.
ex.clique.
bbq.130902.
siloso.300802.
pei.ron.yang.
ed.joe.ron.ser.
130503
140503
```lookingback.
splendiferus.
phagocytosis.
insync.
a slow burning ecstasy//guitar and the day moon//petrol stations on the road//with no destination//you loved me in august//but you dont see me//so much more beautiful in april
```his child.
ron. 170387// icq.#74777649// yhoppie// deco ministry// neb3// jessie's.sheep// stnix// 4dee// sngg//
turnons. Him// red.black// two// tea// spag// piano// clavinova// EL-87// guitar// drummers// strawberry// peach// apple// tomato// chilli//
turnoffs. creepy crawlees// school// unoriginals// noise// imood.
```lookingood.
blacknwhite.
mvpcg.
170303.
fourdiligence.
cl huddle.
ex.neb8.
ex.clique.
bbq.130902.
siloso.300802.
pei.ron.yang.
ed.joe.ron.ser.
130503
140503
```lookingback.
splendiferus.
phagocytosis.
insync.